This and That

..Like you belong in another time period?

I sometimes feel like I should have (and may have) been a princess or duchess back in the 18th or 19th centuries. I absolutely love everything about those time periods. 

Maybe even the 20s or 30s. I like a lot about that era as well.

..Like you belong somewhere else?

Lately I have felt like I dont belong in Nashville. As if I become a chameleon around people and just make myself blend in when really I feel like the wrong puzzle piece. Im not sure where the “right” place for me is, but I will never know for sure until I get out there and find it myself. I hate that I can’t just get out into the world yet due to lack of money.

..Like people will never understand you?

Maybe Its my fault people dont understand me…maybe I have a hard time letting anyone in. Maybe Im scared people wont like the real me. Or maybe I dont even know who the ‘real’ me is yet? Who knows.

..Like you are suppose to be famous?

Yep…I feel like I am suppose to (and will) be famous one day. Sounds absolutely retarded but its true. I feel like one day I will finally be on TV, or Movies, and will be able to act like anyone I want to, and be goofy and crazy and silly and it be totally ok…And Ill get paid for it. haha.

..Like your dream guy doesn’t exist?

..um…where is he? Im getting old…he better get here soon.

SO.

Today was my last full day of classes. Friday I have a final and next wednesday I have my 2D Design class final project review and critique. YAY summer!!

I cant wait to be swimming all day every day.

ALSO. Scorpions and Ratt are coming to Bridgestone in July. I really want to go. Anyone wanna join me? =)

Stoked to see the new Nightmare on Elm Street. I looooove Freddy. It better be good. Not sure how I feel about it not being Robert Englund. We shall see!

Ive been smelling this stuff for so long now and finally had the money to buy it. I couldnt be happier.

ALSO!!…I found out my last day of class and my last Final is a week from today! Yay! Then I will be done for the summer!

Tomorrow is the Zombie Prom. I hope to see you all there!

I havent used this thing in so long. I started it just so people can keep up with me and my bum knee. But I guess I will use it now to just write about this and that.

My life recently has been pretty amazing.I should be hearing back from Vanderbilt soon. I found out yesterday I was still missing some paperwork so it will be at least another week or two before I get my rejection letter. AKA my letter that says “HAHAH, Youre nuts.” Yep, im hoping it says that.

Other than that, school is almost over. Im pretty stoked to not have homework to worry about. Or the drive to Mboro. I will finally be able to enjoy the summer weather…meaning pool time allllll the time!

I was suppose to be in LA for my birthday. But plans got a bit tweaked so I wont be going untill later in the year. And thats ok I suppose. Its not like LA is going anywhere. unless Cali decides to break off the US early and floats out to sea.

Im taking my mom to see Bon Jovi tomorrow night. Im pretty excited about that. She loves him.

Mom just got diagnosed with epilepsy so thats pretty hard but I know she will be ok.

Other than all that, life is good. Cant complain one bit.

“Dont worry, be happy”

Well..to update on the knee..its doing better. Ive been doing lots of exercises to get back my strength and ive been putting weight on it with the help of crutches. So hopefully soon I will be walking without!

My Christmas was ok. Always good to see family. I got lots of goodies: Cooking stuff, gift cards, socks, money, a couch, and much more.

Ive really enjoyed my time home too. I feel like I needed this break. It will be a hard adjustment going from laying around all day doing nothing to back to school and work 6 days a week.

well..I hope everyone had a great Christmas and got everything they wanted.

I walked a few steps yesterday!! Well, with the help of Mindy and Laura. But I did it!!

Today I had a doc appt…things looked good. I get to wear my ACL brace instead of that big fat ugly brace. Also, I can go back to dancing and tumbling after about 12-14 months!! I thought I would never be able to do that stuff again..but I can!…not to say I will do much of anythng due to fear of this whole thing again..BUT..the fact that I have permission makes me quite the happy camper.

Now to watch more Dexter!

Pain level=4.

Annoying level=10.

I cant wait to see Laura today. She is going to make me stong and able to walk again. And keep me company for a bit.

I go to the doctor tomorrow for my post-op appt. Im curious to a) how it went, b) why i have 2 incisions, not 1 like they said, and c) when will i be able to go back to work!

ALSO…3 days till Christmas eve. I actually have something to look forward to. After Christmas I will have nothing to be excited for untill my birthday. lol. There are no other exciting Holidays after Christmas…New Years can be fun…but It wont be this year for me. I wont be able to go anywhere. =(

Oh well..I guess I gotta stay positive.

Ill just watch a movie..that will make me feel better.